Saturday, October 17, 2009

Abundance is Our Natural State

When I remind myself to look for evidence of abundance, I see it all around me. There are an abundance of smiles, laughter, and even an abundance of leaves on the trees. If you spend any time at all on Facebook, it's easy to see that there are an abundance of opinions. Abundance is everywhere.

Recently when I was asked to do an exercise asking me to circulate abundance, however, I couldn't see it as well. I was asked to give a specific amount of money to people I don't know without concern for whether they deserved it or not. I was to know that the law of circulation was always in operation, so anything I am willing to circulate always returns to me tenfold. So why was it so difficult to randomly give the money away even though I see all around me that life is abundant?


I did some work in early August that I still haven't gotten paid for. What is owed to me is a significant amount. I wondered how I could afford to give money away when I am owed money.

I kept catching myself thinking in terms of worthiness. I kept thinking things like, "I should give this money as a tip to people who work at the cafe or find a really beat-up car and leave it there on the windshield because the owner of that kind of car is most likely to need it."

I realized that there is nothing that we have to do to be worthy of receiving in abundance. I see that giving and receiving are the same energetic; they are both part of the law of circulation. I am not giving to someone else because THERE IS NO ONE ELSE. There is only one life expressing in many different forms. So I will consciously circulate my good knowing that what I give multiplies and knowing that I can only keep what I give away.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Who Do YOU Think You Are?

Recently I had the opportunity to attend an event and serve as a healer. While there was a lull in the action, another healer asked me to do a trade; I would facilitate a visioning session for him and he would balance my chakras (no, that isn't a euphemism). Since my healing ability is a newly-found talent, I was a little nervous. See, this healer I mention has been doing healings for a long time--over ten years. In fact, when I used to attend healing events, before I recognized my own ability to heal, he was always in attendance as a healer.


I thought to myself, "what can I possibly offer him? He has WAY more experience than I do." I recognized these thoughts as just another version of "who do you think you are?" Then I remembered that it isn't me that does the work. I am simply a vehicle through which God expresses. So it didn't really matter how much experience I have or don't have as long as I'm willing to put my ego aside and allow myself to be open and receptive. So I did the healing with that in mind and, more importantly, in consciousness. I was able to give him insight into his relationship with his brother and provide him with strategies that would help him improve that relationship. I was also able to interpret a dream he shared with me in a manner which gave him greater insight into some things he was contemplating. And, as it turned out, I didn't even have time to get a healing in return.

How often do we catch ourselves thinking we are too small, too inexperienced, too whatever for a task we want to accomplish? Our Higher Self or God or intuition knows how to do it even if we don't. Since we are God in expression, all we have to know is the 'what'. We have to ask the right questions. What am I being called to do? What is God's vision of my life? Then when we become open to those answers, we can allow Spirit to give us the ' how'.

Who do YOU think you are?

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Stop Making Sense

Today my right palm was tingling. I had my ideas of what this could signify (yes, I've been washing my hands frequently-thank you), but I thought I'd call a healer friend and ask her what she thought. At first she mentioned that it was a sign that I'd be getting a lot of money. She based this answer on the old wives' tale about itchy palms. Then she stated that the hands are the seat of creativity and that perhaps I was being called to express myself creatively. Although the former sounds great, the later most resonates.

Lately I've noticed that the decisions I've been called to make do not make any sense. Yet, creatively these decisions make all the sense in the world. In a few weeks I will be ending a part time job that I've had for three years which provided me with health benefits as well as financial rewards. Logic mind said to go out and find another job immediately. So I called a friend and solicited his help. I went for an interview, which went really well, and was pretty sure I would get offered the job. Something in me, however, knew that this wasn't the right move to make. So I stopped my participation in the interview process, much to my friend's disappointment. Although I do have some measure of sadness around disappointing my friend, I am clear that I must listen to my inner guidance, before all else, without worrying about who will be upset with me.

I'm participating in the visioning process to see what God's vision of my life truly is. This new vision may not include the kind of work I was previously doing or maybe it will. All I know is that I am clearly guided as to when to say yes and when to release an opportunity for someone else's highest good.


Recently I've discovered a gift for healing others. I use my intuition, prayer, visualization and I do what I am guided to do. I've healed migraines and other physical manifestations of pain using these tools. Recently someone witnessed a healing I performed and asked me where I'd studied Reiki. I haven't. I wasn't aware that the things that I was intuitively guided to do came from any specific healing modality. I just did what God told me to do. Sharing the gift of healing in this way did not make logical sense, but it worked nonetheless.

The more I listen to my intuition and allow myself to be guided, the stronger these gifts of healing become. The more I listen, the more I hear. So I think it's due time I stopped making sense. The logical mind is a beautiful and valuable tool when used in tandem with what I know to be true spiritually. Creativity defies logic and I am creating a new life for myself. I see that to fully express my creativity, I may need to stop making sense.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Excuse Me, You're Stepping on My Perception

Yesterday I had an interesting experience. I am generally a peace-loving, conflict-avoiding person. But yesterday, I wanted to curse someone out!

My colleague and I met to conduct some business. I had parked in one hour parking as the business we were due to complete would not take very long. After we had been meeting for about forty five minutes, I told her that I would have to move my car or feed the meter so that I wouldn't get a ticket and that I would return to sign the second stack of paperwork as needed. She immediately became angry and asked me why I couldn't just sign the papers before I left. She said that she had to get going. I promised her that I would return quickly as I had other appointments that day as well, but she would not budge. Then she went into what I will describe as a rant, about how everything is done at my convenience and she is sick of it. After trying to reason with her and talk to her about how we've compromised in our work together all year, I shut my mouth, signed the stack of papers as quickly as I could, slid them across the table to her and ran to feed the meter as she mumbled an insincere, and slightly sarcastic, thank you.


As I left, I was very angry. I couldn't imagine why she would speak to me with such disrespect for absolutely no reason. I had to shut my mouth in that moment to prevent myself from saying something unprofessional in a professional space, but feeling that I had to be silent only increased my anger. I have been taught to respect my elders and this was an elder colleague. Yet, I did not feel in that moment that she deserved my respect, as she was not willing to give me hers. The icing on the cake was that when I returned from feeding the meter, she was still there socializing for at least twenty minutes! What happened to that appointment she was in a rush to get to?



As I contemplated the occurrence later, I realized that we had completely different perceptions of the same incident. I realized that while I saw myself as being compromising by moving my car and returning as quickly as I could so as not to inconvenience her or sacrifice her time, she saw me as doing everything at my convenience without giving thought to her needs. As I recounted all the times that I had made a conscientious effort to compromise with her, I realized that all of those attempts were completely inapparent from her perspective.

I saw that I ask for what I want in the professional setting and am unafraid of being met with resistance. I am also unattached to getting exactly what I ask for most of the time. I feel that if I ask for things and someone says no, I am back exactly where I began. I have lost nothing. My colleague does not see life that way and does not ask for what she desires; therefore, to her someone like me must seem selfish. How dare I ask for what I want?

How often do we look at someone else's behavior and find it inappropriate, without even trying to understand their perspective? Do I need to give my colleague permission to ask for what she wants so that she doesn't get to the point of being fed up and explode? Maybe, maybe not. Perhaps it's just my job to recognize that my perception of things is sometimes only true for me and to allow people their unique perceptions. It is also my responsibility to enlighten others as to how to best communicate with me. It is my responsibility to let them know that I highly value myself and I will only tolerate being spoken to with respect. Finally, it is my responsibility to define for them what respect looks like in my view. Excuse me, you're stepping on my perception.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Embracing a New Vision

I am really clear about my roles in life. I know that I am a writer, a daughter, an educator, a speaker, a female, etc. Lately, however, I have stepped into a new role--healer.

It started with an invitation from a dear friend, a brother really, to serve as a healer at his birthday celebration. He is a gifted theta healer and his idea was to have healers from several different modalities provide their services, at a very nominal cost, so that all participants had the opportunity to be exposed to healing modalities they may not have tried before. He was calling it A Day of Wholeness. I'd been to similar gatherings before and was excited about sampling some things myself--massage, energy healing; yes to all. Yet, when he asked me to serve as one of the healers, that role didn't seem to fit me. Sure, I am great at visioning and my intuition is really strong. I've been able to share some important information with people that has helped them. I didn't think that I had enough control over the way the information came through me, however, to justify calling myself a healer. A healer was someone who was practiced and in control, right? So I said no. I told him I wasn't ready.


A few days later, I was on a bus headed to an event downtown. I heard very clearly, "tell him you will do it." I have learned to listen to my intuition, so I sent my brother a text saying that I'd do it. He was thrilled and grateful. I was happy that he was thrilled, but perplexed that I had been told to do it.

Lately I've realized that there are many roles I've had in life that I didn't expect beforehand. If someone had told me before it happened that I'd be on an archaeological dig someday, I would've said, "yeah, right." Yet, I've done that. When I was an English major in college, I swore I'd never be an English teacher. Yet, I've done that too-at the secondary level and university level.

I've learned that sometimes people see qualities in me that I may not recognize because these qualities are so ingrained in me that I cannot see them. They say a fish doesn't know water until you remove the fish from water, right?

So I'm now open to embracing several new roles in my life. International speaker? Yes! First soprano? Yes! Healer? Yes! I am willing, I am open, I embrace a new vision. And so IT IS!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

All I Ever Needed to Know About the Law of Attraction I Learned From an Orange

Last month I had a magnificent demonstration of the law of attraction at work. I wanted to attend the Prince concert so much, but it seemed as if every time I tried to get tickets, I came up empty-handed. Ticketmaster was a bust, joining the music club didn't yield a ticket, and although I aided others in securing tickets I couldn't seem to get one myself. My horoscope said that March 28, the day of the concerts, was supposed to be the luckiest day of the year for me but the circumstances I was seeing were not in accord with that. It was frustrating! I finally decided to accept what was occurring in that moment. I saw Prince in concert the month before, so I chose to surrender and dwell in gratitude for that phenomenal experience.

Prince was scheduled to perform three concerts at different venues at the Nokia Center. As luck would have it, the choir I sing with was also scheduled to perform in the plaza at the Nokia Center for Earth Hour. I imagined Prince crossing the plaza area between concerts, spotting our choir performing and joining us onstage. Hey, anything is possible.


As I prepared to sing I got a text from my cousin, who also sings in the choir. He had successfully purchased one ticket online and the confirmation he received indicated that there might be more than one ticket for him at the box office; although he had only purchased one. He promised that if he got to the box office and there was more than one ticket, he would give the extra ticket to me. Later, I got the text, "Two tickets! Hurry up!". There were two tickets at the box office. I grabbed an orange and my coat and ran from the Staples Center to the Nokia Center to join him at the theatre. I could not believe how lucky I was.

When we got to the entrance, I was told that I could not bring in my orange and that it would be thrown away if I left it with security. Hmm orange or Prince concert? Yep, the orange was left behind. Funny though. I hate to waste food. The wasted orange stayed in the back of my mind. Don't get me wrong, I appreciated and enjoyed the heck out of my free ticket to a Prince concert and I would never overlook that huge blessing!!!! However, I also decided that I was going to manifest an orange to replace the one I had to give up. I wanted to have my orange and eat it too! Okay, I'm a Capricorn and yes, stubbornness is part of my charm.


Two days later, I went to work. To my delight, someone had brought oranges to share. I got my orange back. After that it seemed that oranges followed me or preceded me everywhere I went. Free oranges started to show up at work every time I went there. There was even orange scented bathroom spray at a friend's house when I went to visit.

I got to thinking about the law of attraction and the principles The Secret luminaries shared in the movie. God or the Universe does not know any difference between manifesting an orange or a Prince ticket. I was seeing some things as being easy to manifest (oranges) and others as being difficult (Prince concert tickets). Yet, the Universe is always giving of Itself and responding to our vibrational frequencies. Whatever I desire is available to me as long as I am an energetic match to it. All I ever needed to know I learned from an orange.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Apply Gratitude Liberally

I have done all that I can not to buy into the scarcity mindset that is the prevailing consciousness right now. I am praying, visioning, doing theta healing, giving talks to others and taking action from inspiration and not from fear. Today I discovered that there is one more spiritual tool at my disposal that I need to apply more often---gratitude.



Funny how you can learn an important lesson about your beliefs just by going to the mailbox. I was expecting two checks. One for a large amount (read pay the mortgage) and one for a smaller amount (read pay a light bill and buy some groceries). The check that arrived today happened to be the smaller amount. The first thought that entered my mind when I opened that check and looked at the amount was, "is that it?" Then I caught myself.



There was no gratitude or appreciation present for me in that moment. I was dwelling in unmet expectations. I desired a large check and did not get the check I was expecting. I looked at what I was focused on--lack. A lack of what I truly wanted; the large check.

In that instant, I made a decision to shift my focus to gratitude. I became grateful that I'd received a check. I have learned that this is where the proverbial rubber hits the road. I have learned that this is when I need to apply spiritual technology. Since I am aware that what I focus on expands, I choose to focus on gratitude. Apply gratitude liberally.